Phase 7.0.1 August 25, 2008
Posted by Sharny in : Life, Ramble, Work , trackbackI just took the time to do something that I have been needing to do for a little while, that being organise my life properly into phases. Said organisation puts me now at the very beginning of Phase 7, which I am very creatively naming Gap Year Quest. So, I consider where I am now to be 7.0.1, simply because I think there will be quite a lot to this year and I’m barely into it. I’m not even sure it counts until the school year starts again, which is just around the corner.
It feels very strange that all my friends will be going off to sixth form and here I am doing something completely different, preparing for adventure no less. In some ways, it’s nice to be a bit of a pioneer, doing something a bit special. Of course, there are the ways that will potentially make me an outsider again and there is nothing I want less than to drift away from what Phase 6 was all about. I can’t really dwell on that though, only hope that it doesn’t happen, as there is very little I can do.
This part of this phase is very much defined by the mundane, I’ve completed my first week of work, things are feeling more comfortable now but with 25 hours a week things are different and ultimately quite boring. I have no weekend to speak of so social events are difficult to manage. It’s not gonna be much fun. I’m fine with that.
The bit I like less is that I feel a little like I’m living a lie. Obviously, my friends know of my plans, that in a few months I’ll be off. But that’s not what my employers think, nor is it what I’m gonna be telling my colleagues. Of course, nothing stops them from finding this post. I haven’t really explicitly talked about my plans on here I don’t think but it’s not too hard to find really (although, google searches I just conducted don’t really lead here, so I can probably speak reasonably freely). That element makes me feel uncomfortable, although I suppose there is a small allure of not quite being fully free with the truth in that I could reinvent myself, I’m really no actor. I’m not sure I really know how to be anything other than me, although I can push forward different facets of myself as I please. I don’t know really, I’d rather be able to talk about the my ski instructing prospects freely, it’s such an exciting thing.
Actually though, my biggest worry right now is how I’m going to quit. It seems quite scary in itself, I know I need to give a week’s notice but how exactly I quit I’m not sure. Some sort of letter I guess. The other question is when. Nothing lines up with my pay schedule really, and if I’m going to continue working up until the week before I go then there are 2 days I need off in order to be there to play at Monday Mayhem (something that needs to be spoken about in more detail here really). In some ways, it would definitely be nice to have that last week to prepare, there’s also one of my favourite bands playing the Saturday before, so it would make sense to hand in my notice the Thursday a week before then I suppose. I’m hoping that however it goes, I leave on terms good enough at least for a reference but possibly for future employment, as there isn’t really any reason why I couldn’t work there whilst at university for some extra money. I don’t know, I guess planning is good.
This post is a bit of a ramble really, which makes sense given the times. My conclusion is basically that things are quite different now and this phase is rather defined by the mundane but luckily, improvements are just around the corner. If they weren’t, I’m not entirely sure how I could cope…even though it’s not really that bad.
Tagged as: Future, Gap Year, Life, Phases, Ramble, Work
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