I wonder which is worse March 11, 2007
Posted by Sharny in : Uncategorized , trackbackIt seems like forever that I have seemed to be wish to be part of a bigger group of friends and to have more of a normal teenage existence but then reading bits and pieces on the internet and hearing people talk about all the trouble they have has got to make me wonder if its worth it. Is the happiness gained from this really worth the pain of it when things go wrong, I guess I have somehow skipped that (at least for a few years) by being part of such a small and solid group. I wonder if anyone is on the other side wishing they were part of what I am, probably not… I might go into more detail about what I mean at some point in the future, I dunno yet.
Perhaps the greatest actual part of it is the experience, its all very well being numbed from the pain of life, numbed into an existence that lacks any real depth but that’s not really what I want. It must be a part of being human, to ride the waves of life. Ah, shouldn’t think about it too much as its never going to change things by just pondering over them but this is one of those things I think about which really makes me wonder and I just have no idea, I really am just the observer.
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